hello

Oh how I have missed you. I think of you often, yet neglect you all the same. My thoughts and feelings, my creations whirling in my mind with not-quite-the-right words devised to communicate the beautiful chaos. i promise to return soon.

dreams

All that I have has slipped through my fingers like trying to make castles in the sand. The castles in my mind - sturdy, beautiful, fairy tale like but my hands do not bring my dreams to life. Time and effort crumbles between my inept fingers. These hands were not made to build. They do not craft fine things. My dreams do not come to life at my will. Instead, the sand castles fall, gracefully, fluidly, surprisingly quickly; my dreams erode. The fate of sand castles - to fall or be washed away, beautiful and short-lived, like my dreams.

futility

I resist the passage of time. I fortify myself in this poignant moment, the moment in which I have become the most complete version of myself.
I beg time to yield, to grant me respite from its eternal ticking.
But time continues on and with it my moment fades into a slowly blurring past.
My realized self becomes a former version of me and I start again brand new.
Tick, tick, tick…

falling for you

Deeper and deeper I fall. Light has been suffocated by penetrating darkness, as I have been suffocated by your consuming presence. I need not light, nor air to live; only the sustenance which your being provides, that which i crave ceaselessly. your eyes, i seek their gaze. cast them upon me now, they alone generate the light i need to guide my way. your eyes, like a beacon ensuring my safety, drawing me into you, my eternal stronghold. i hold my breath in restless anticipation of your embrace. nothing, nothing, nothing breathes life into me as you do. once within your grasp, i breathe you in. my soul is gratified, my spirit whole. i fall and in so doing, i arrive.

key

i yearn to hear your voice, to feel your warm breath on my cheek. whisper those words i wait endlessly to hear. your mouth is the key to my pandora's box. unlock my mysteries, my desires...set me free.